fuck ya'll

i once had a whole lota friends
fuck 'em
thought they would ride to the end
fuck 'em
we had already been through thick and thin
fuck 'em
shit would break but together we'd mend
fuck 'em
you almost couldn't tell us apart
fuck 'em
one mind, one goal, one heart
fuck 'em
if things went down we'd have each others back from the start
fuck 'em
wouldn't matter who was first to get smart
fuck 'em
but then things started to change
fuck 'em
new things happened and plans got rearranged
fuck 'em
they started to act real weird strange
fuck 'em
i couldn't grasp what was going on in theirs brains
fuck 'em
it made sit back and reflect
fuck 'em
then that turned to regret
fuck 'em
now deep down inside my chest
fuck 'em
there's this wild fire that just won't rest
fuck 'em
really the really why i'm so stressed
fuck 'em
is because we were way to deep for this mess
fuck 'em
well i was wrong i guess
fuck 'em
but that just makes me even more vexed
fuck 'em
see i remember staying in the pocket, down for my friends as if i was each one of their sidekick, if they didn't have i would go out and cop it, and on the real that's how all of us rocked it. but now i can't even get a call not a text not a single word at all. i wanna just go bang on some jaws but instead i'll just say
fuck ya'll

Goodnight

I'm not one for saying goodbye, it's so much easier to just say goodnight.

I'll pretend that I'll soon see you again and I'll embrace you like a long time friend.
I can act as if it is all ok, like your at home right now just enjoying your day, and if i miss you at all i can just place a call and you'd be on the other end with a million things to say.
While I'm stuck in traffic I can check your Facebook status and I'll see that your kinda flirting with someone in one of your classes, then i can send you a text saying," you're in school to focus", and you'll send back a crooked face letting me know that my incites are hopeless.
I just wanted to say goodnight and hope that you sleep soundly and i want you to know that when they found you they some how found me. i think back on all the things I've done and lived, and then i see that if your father only had one breath left he would give you his just so a goodnight could be returned to his...just so he could say goodnight to one of his kids.
Saying goodbye is just too painful to bare, the word is too final, there's no promises there, it's too done and over with, it's too cut and dry, it's too hard to even write about because i have to stop typing so i can wipe my eyes...
All the wrongs you may have done I pray The Lord forgives them, and i hope however did this is feeling hell and i don't mean that as a euphemism. some are asking for their capture, i'm not cause there's too much for them to do in prison. the evil in me wants to lay down the hammer and personally punctuate the end of their sentence. but you have some how taught me peace and i really want you to know it, you're about to have a niece and to her i promise to show it.
the reason why someone decided you should float before you got to the age where you could vote i don't know but it only made you stronger because you had a hold on this whole nation that will never let go. you'll be remembered for your legacy not for your plight.....
but i'm going to let you sleep now...
i love you ...
...goodnight